Double Lives - Riz MC

I don’t know which way to go

It’s a path that I can’t find

I’m just tryina be me baby

Can I build a bridge inside

I don’t know which way to go

It’s a path that I can’t find

I’m just tryina be me baby

So I live a double life

Since we were small

We been taught

A certain way to be is law

It’s deep seated like jeans that fall

My son, our people came to these shores

With nothing, honour is all we brought

So keep your culture, keep the fort

Some last of the mohicans talk

Since we felt like outsiders this helped define us

And we made it our choice

But now I’m just confused

Half mohican

Half cowboy

Cos life slips, ideas mix, is it best of both

Or two lies I live

At home take comfort in culture, religion

When I’m out then I flout it

Fucking and pillin'

Live a double life

Keep shit hidden

Never shitting on my own doorstep like a pigeon

Drink smoke drugs and women all forbidden

So what?

wait up f your ethnic it’s different

Get caught, the family lose face

Mum has a heart attack her heart breaks

Dad disowns you, sorry is too late

Girls get married off or turn up in a suitcase

But even with no threat, respect

Means you’d rather lie than cause upset

They taste boots racist abuse, slave laboured until they’re great to raise you

So keep hiding, keep Jekyll on the low

How long will it last?

I don’t know

Drink in my hand with my girl on the phone

Anything you wanna tell me son?

NO

I don’t know which way to go

It’s a path that I can’t find

I’m just tryina be me baby

Can I build a bridge inside

I don’t know which way to go

It’s a path that I can’t find

I’m just tryina be me baby

So I live a double life

Growin' up was all about chewing gum and saying how

You was at your mates when you were going out

Eye drops for redeye, copper coins in your mouth, hide caller ID when you call

a girl’s house

By this age it’s bait the whole family blatantly knows your game the truths out

Drugs and johnnies in your trunks and pocket

Been found with a gold heart locket no doubt

They know what you do

But its still all a taboo

So everyone pretends it’s like the Truman show, who are you?

Don’t recognise your own face in the mirror feel so detached

What do you expect when your life’s so slashed down the middle you’re living

like a psychopath

So you can either keep on your sheepskin

Or come out as a wolf but your shepherds will be eaten

That’s why the youth got nobody to lead them

Either going jail or grow a beard start preaching

Is the way I was raised what I believe in

Never be at peace til I know who I’m pleasing

It all gets deep when your demons don’t let you sleep and your girl is a heathen

But that’s a whole other tune

By the next album I’ll decide what to do

Slippin', sipping on a mixed up brew

Yea we like the taste but we spit some too

SO I spit this for the Muslims and Jews

Christians, Sikh, Jains the Buddhists and Hindus

Confused, stuck between old and new?

You’re probably gonna fuck up your own kids too

I don’t know which way to go

It’s a path that I can’t find

I’m just tryina be me baby

Can I build a bridge inside

I don’t know which way to go

It’s a path that I can’t find

I’m just tryina be me baby

So I live a double life