Family Hospital - Rivilin

[Friendly hollow moon why do you weep for me, asking questions of loss and

empty sleep, hopeful child resting under families floors, a ghost to the

background we watch and weep

If you took my hand, and held me against your chest, just for one minute,

I would see the world

Our skin flakes, our love collides, a family once whole now divides.]

It was like one day we just picked up our home

Living on my nan’s couch I felt so alone

I remember my mother didn’t smile for a year

My brother flourished with suicide it was clear

Maybe one day it will all get btter

But right now it won’t

Couldn’t see my mother when sh was in hospital

Perishing to the cold

Didn’t really understand a thing about money

Didn’t really know what a hard time looked like

Brother was backstabbed by a few friends

Saw him get death threats it got to his head

Worried every night that he’d end his life

Stayed home from school so I knew he’d be alright

Time passes and everyone changes

You see I faded in the end

It was like one day we just picked up our home

Living on my nan’s couch I felt so alone

I remember my mother didn’t smile for a year

My brother flourished with suicide it was clear

That I couldn’t handle myself turns to ways to numb the pain

Yeah I saw it get the best of me

It’s like that year I didn’t ever exist

Choking on my own sorrow shove it down yeah I won’t be missed

Another bottle down another day gone

Where did time fly, I don’t remember that time at all

On my phone to my best friend, breaking down crying

I couldn’t handle the pain, I knew I was lying

To myself to get through the day

Sometimes it worked.

Sometimes I ended up writhing in pain

All these memories start to get hazy

I need to take a step back and rethink my ways

It was like one day we just picked up our home

Living on my nan’s couch I felt so alone

I remember my mother didn’t smile for a year

My brother flourished with suicide it was clear