Don't Wanna Be - Rhyme Asylum

I take life for granted, made mistakes in the past

Don’t want to harbour so much hate in my heart

Found my way through the dark

And only by closing my open eyes and taking a chance

I wanna make my family proud

And show those that I love that I ain’t standing round

I hate backing down, hate lashing out

Hate that I hate so much — what is this hate rant about?!

I don’t wanna be this negative person

Pessimistic, perfectionist obsessively working

Always anxiety ridden

It’s like my mind’s in Rhyme Asylum inside of a prison

It’s a blessing and a curse

I just want us heard and to get the respect that we deserve

I need to stop and breathe

Cos in reality there ain’t nothing stopping me be what I wanna be

Don’t make me be, don’t make me be

Don’t make me be, don’t make me be

I’mma go it alone, on my own rowing this boat

No-one to throw me a rope

Feel like I’m lost at sea

Tryna make waves, on this endless expanse of monotony

And I gotta be what I wanna be

Or else it’s like telling my heart not to beat

Telling my lungs not to breathe

Inspirations an island just beyond my reach

Chances are few and far between

On an ocean with nowhere to plant my seeds

And you reap what you sow

It’s getting dark, I keep an eye on my beacon of hope

Hope in every vein and capillary

My message in a bottle is my name on the pages of history

I got two ores

One named determination and the others name is ability

This me ain’t the way that I wanna be

Now I know its the way that I gotta be

I’ve had my heart broken before

Another persons actions controlling my emotions and thought

Love is a battlefield — I’m a soldier at war

People saying «I don’t know him no more»

The old me’s dead and gone, I got away with murdering him

So my split personality holding the fort

Now I gotta look deep

My older said «don't regret anything that makes you smile that’s how it should

be»

And so I took heed

Now I live my life, a different guy but miss the nights I could sleep

Thinking isn’t it funny

I used to be in control but I’m driven by women and money

In this eternal search for a pot of gold

Where I’ve lost my soul and my hearts gotten cold