Colored Dreams / Killers Pt. 2 - Reason

Yeah

Mama I just killed a man, body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands?

Don’t shed no tears mama

Look, I said, «Mama I just killed a man.

Body is still tremblin',

can you feel my hands?

Don’t shed no tears mama

Man convicted in the shooting death of the Milwaukee teenager will be behind

walls until he’s at least eighty years old

Police said: DeMario Denell Jackson shot into a crowd during a fight and killed

a fourteen year old.

Our Jonah Kaplan reports from court

The court on count 1 is going to impose a life sentence in the Wisconsin state

prison system with eligibility to apply for extended supervision in 56 years

Yeah

I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years

'Til the judge say that it’s okay to come out

I need an escape and a way to run out

People say that they love you but you ain’t breakin' me out

I’ll probably die up in this motherfucker, shit

I’ve accepted that and now I’m findin' peace, uh

Long nights I’ve been tryna sleep

But I can’t, so let me write you this apology, this for your girl:

Look, I’m sorry, mama

I put a bullet in 'em, I took your heart from you

I killed your man and now you’re forced to be apart from him

You daughter walkin', who gon' catch her when she start runnin'?

I was only nineteen, doing foolish things for colors

Your tears in the courtroom, I can tell you loved him

I thought I was being gangster when I took his life

Now I can barely sleep through a night

I get it now, fuck these colored dreams, shit

I get it now, fuck these colored dreams

Fuck these colored dreams

Fuck these colored dreams, shit

I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years

Shit, might as well apologize for the rest

And to my brother I claimed I love you more than the rest

If I really loved you how come I guided you to your death?

You was only twelve when I got locked up

Pops shook, no role models so the block looks like the only option

Should have made you put them Glocks down

But instead I showed you how to get it poppin'

And you took to it, nah you was never shook to it

Even if trouble wasn’t around, you would look to it

Throwin' up set, you let them know you wasn’t no bitch 'til you run into

multiple crips

You let them niggas know you’ll be down for your niggas

Thinkin' in your head, «Big bro' will be proud of a nigga»

I hate to have to be the way for you to go

What’s even worse, I couldn’t make it to your funeral

Fuck them colored dreams

Shit, fuck these colored dreams

Fuck them colored dreams

Look, mama, I know I killed that man

Still remember tremblin' when you felt my hand

Don’t shed no tears mama, uh

I know I won’t be home for years, mama

I know you feel like a failure to all your peers, mama

You been a blessing to me

I been a curse since birth to you, made shit worse for you

They let me out this second, I wouldn’t even search for ya

Shit, it only make it harder

You care so much that you would kill for me

I get your letters and I wonder how you still love me

You say you pray every night and you still feel for me

Shit and if you could I know you probably would do this bit for me, shit

So what’s it been the last time I speak to you

I want you to know I love you with everything in me

It’s insane to me, you share DNA with me

We polar opposites

I know I failed you mama, wish I could be your accomplishment

So as I stand on this chair writing this letter

Noose around my neck, the only way I do better is if I leave you now

'Cause you been beaten down from them other things

I ain’t give you shit a mother brings, I get it now

Fuck these--