Burdened - Portals

Nothing feels right

I’m always constantly searching for a reason to stay alive

Time after time

The depression grabs a hold of me and carves me with a fucking knife

Things will never change, I’ve always been this way

I’m just a byproduct of young life gone to waste

Things will never change, I’ve always been this way

I’m just a dead man walking

You fucking coward

Eternal suffering, forever pained

Why do I always have to feel this way?

Every day just feels the same

Always searching for a feeling that I will never regain

I’ve spent my life wallowing in misery

Washed up, lifeless, drowning in my apathy

Years have been spent building up a hardened shell

Fighting losing battles, and yet still, no one can ever tell

This is Hell

I am just a fucking waste

Dead to a world that never cared for me

A soulless being

I never feel a thing

Dead to a world, a world that never fucking cared for me

Disassociation.

The burden of a heavy mind

Decomposing while my body still stays alive

Rotting away.

Still staying the same

I’m just counting down the minutes 'til I reach my final day

Just fucking end it all

Withering into nothing as

My mind slips into a haze

Misery develops into twisted senses of normality

And I could use the company

But some things never change

Forever burdened

Forever drained