Mindstate - Pete Philly, Perquisite, Arts The Beatdoctor

I fall into the darkness and I can’t get out

Once again depressed, stressed and filled with doubt

Ain’t no solid evidence

Justificating the aggravating decision to choose a musicians existence

Shit is intense, losing confidence

Really wanna break through but I feel the fence

Defensive way of acting

The way I react when I feel this way

Man I’ma kill today

Hey, listen up normally I’m up

But when the down comes around y’all better shut up

I’m in-caged by my own rage

My own resentment

This state of mind normally stays for a day

But hey, I really try to be the nicest guy

But sometimes my insecurities slice me right?

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Phil

I’m either an asshole or truly real

This remains for anyone if I ever offended you

I’m torn between ups and downs and the ups is losing duke

I’m choosing to be this way

Cause it’s a part of me and the lyricist that I stay

I pray to stay righteous and fight just not to give up

And show these fools that I do give a fuck but

I guess it’s just my mindstate

I guess it’s just my mindstate

I wake up and shut the curtains to hide from the sunlight

Drink a cup of coffee and I hide

Cause the sun might change my perspective on things

And force me to act and react, throw my ass in the ring and fight tonight

I stay up late, anxious as fuck

Scared that my fate is to be broke and stuck in an illusion of grandeur

Or get suicidal like my late grandfather

I purr like a kitten, yet often feel smitten

By the terrible disease of never feeling at ease

I’m displeased by everything an anything at all times

Even though I’m pleasantly positive in all rhymes

Shit, just a facade

Feel pleasant every time I hear them applaud

Yet regret sinks in whenever I’m not singing

Thinking I should’ve finished my school instead of just bringing the

Rhyme

Yet I’m just manic like that, trading education for inspiration is just

Phat

Fuck them suicidal tendencies, I need to stop thinking like that

I guess it’s just my mindstate

I guess it’s just my mindstate…