Mother Nature - Öutīš

Today I’m feeling like the feelings that I had in the past

Are something that’s long since passed.

And you ask

«Now that you’re making it, are you feeling wild?»

Nah, baby girl, I’m feeling suicidal

Thoughts of you in bridal attire do

Things I can’t describe to my mind, who

Only wants to take away the pain

Wish I wasn’t a disciple, trying to decipher

Why you thought that you could ride through

And then abandon me mid-cypher

I’m liable to lose it

'cause this shit is abusive.

I’m used to the losing

But somewhere along the way I lost my ability

To see positivity and negativity

At one point you were begging me

To tell you my memory

Of you and I’s beginning

Now all I see is a reckoning

And I’m beckoning

The deadly seas to come and caress

You were my North Star

I was always so impressed

With how soft your touch was

But our love was never the flesh

It was the next level

Extra terrestrial, movie-star love.

Never pedestrian

That’s why you fucking left

I’m praying the sun will rise

But I only see darker skies

Can you see it, Can you see it, Can you see it?

Are you scared?

Girl I won’t hold my breath

For you to come back, you had your chance

Can you see it, Can you see it, Can you see it?

Are you scared?

That’s why you fucking left

Because you wanted to clean your house

But then we’d end up in your bed again

Weed end up in your bed again

You could never let me in

Always some punk you was messing with

But you could never see the real problem

You just wanted to solve 'em

I fucking hate the upgraded model

Abusive reclusive terrible mother model

Obey destruction and corruption like you read the wrong gospel

If you grew a dick and fucked your leg up

You’d be your fucking father

Maybe you’ll hear this and my love can be the martyr

And you can change

But until then just know I’m healing

Because I was put here for something more

Or better yet, I was put here to finish what you were put here for

But couldn’t do

And now I’m feeling wicked, too

Because I said some shit that I know is going to hurt

But baby look at you

You act a fool, chasing train-wrecks like

«Look, I can be a disaster too»

Look at the love that I passed to you

And you pawned it off on someone else

I’ve never seen anyone hate anyone like you hate yourself

You took away your hope, your love, your dignity

Damn girl, you raped yourself

You’re poisonous, girl.

No tobacco

Your drug’s not safe to sell

I don’t wish for anything to be different

Cause I put all of this change inside to give you a paper trail

That you can follow and use to re-make yourself

Realize the type with which you try to relate yourself

You don’t help broken people

You follow them until they crash

Then you break yourself

Acting like your train derailed

Never read my fucking mail

I swear my ship’s about to sail

When God made you he got so close to perfection

Fuck, I guess that Mother Nature failed

Damn

I guess that Mother Nature failed