understand - Ollie

I’m laying down under the stars

Wondering what they all are

Some days they feeling so close

But others they feeling so far

Kinda like things in my life

And love that I hold in my heart

Whatever fulfilling your dreams

Has power to tear you apart

'Cause everything come with a cost

Some people whose focus get lost

The wisdom inside of these flows

Is also admitting my flaws

See, I ain’t too proud to say I’m not perfect

I live with a lot of these thoughts

I hate what’s inside of my head, but

I can’t make it stop

It’s why I like taking these chances

Moments where growth advances

We stare at the moon, a canvas

While writing these poems and stanzas

Yo, I make my bed, I sleep on the floor

I guess I’ve been searching for answers

'Cause shit don’t reflect what’s at my core

I’m tryna pick at my standards

I do all the things that I should

Regretting some others I could

I’m finally taking a stand

The difference what make you a man

Easier said than done, I know

When things are not going as planned

But I do my best with weight on my chest

Some people just won’t understand

They won’t understand

Some people just won’t understand

Yeah

I kinda like being alone

The days I don’t look at my phone

'Cause all I ever feel is anxious

'Round some people I don’t know

They talk about this, they gossip 'bout that

But I rather be back at home

Where I can perfect my craft

And build out a family life on my own

It’s evident nothing is fair

So I hold my memories with care

'Cause no one know day-time or hour

And that’s about all that I fear

Yeah, they say the eyes the window inside of the soul

So look at mine clear

And tell me exactly, what do you see?

'Cause I see a future right here

I’m sorry, that’s deep-personal

I change a lot-versatile

Tell me what’s love if it’s not compassionately

Forgiving and merciful

I try and reap what I sow and preach what I know

And give back to people who need it the most

Even on Mondays and when I feel down

'Cause talking is one thing, but actions, they show

So, I’m doing whatever I can

To put out the flames I fanned

Where in the past, I ran

Easier said than done, I know

When things are not going as planned

But I do my best with weight on my chest

Some people just won’t understand

They won’t understand