Undertow - Numbers

waiting for the silent screams of jealousy inside

tearing thoughts apart a bitter taste i leave behind

listening, a holy voice that pleases me the most

speaking softly to me now but screaming at my ghost

foundation built by hardened skin

left an empty place inside

when i began to speak

it awakened a beast named Pride

speaking louder, its hold reigned

power feels empty when it’s given, not gained

weakened by praise

strengthened by doubt

this is what my life will be about

i was pushed down

i was cast aside

down this path i believe

that you all denied

just let me be free

i’ll explain why these demons keep yelling at me

this was the voice inside i’ve had all along

yearning to speak for the wronged

won’t you please curse this heart?

i didn’t know what i had from the start

it’s like my innocence was set aside

where my naivety died

another sleepless night

wrestling with my mind

i’m stuck in this tunnel

the end shines a light

everyone has held me from it

told me it’s not mine

i give and give and give and give

and they consume what’s left of me like hungry swine

what does it mean to keep the devil inside?

what does it mean to keep this feeling alive?

why do my actions seem out of control?

why do the things i believe still fuel my soul?

don’t slip into the madness

don’t be taken by the tide

i will bruise, i’ll be broken

but nothing takes away what’s inside

so stay away, stay away, stay away from me