TO L-VE - NOT ENOUGH

Like chains that control me

Like fog that mists up my sight

Infectants

Like hope sinking in

Like rapid rattle that stuns me slowly

These streams of doubt

They drain out love out of me

Though it’s so much in you

My world is a tomb

And every funeral inside

I skipped, I left

Like face fading in blue

In a car that used to bring me to

From where I’m far away

From where I found love

Though it’s so much in you

My world is a tomb

This streets wearing black

I wander

Her face bleeding blue

Doubt is what you drew

Am I seeing this again

I’m wondering

Felt helpless

Completely surrendered to time

Let me exit

I could not explain to you why

I’m not the one who deserves your trust

And my feet keep me away

From where I find love

And then I knew

It’s not the moment I can defeat

My demons, my past, my sins

It aches the same

Sinking further

I promised I won’t hurt instead

Though I loved, but you saw

That I’m not ok

I stayed silent, dumb, aching

Waiting for the day when it ends

Though you were my help

I am already dead

And though this is my hell

Inside of me it stays the same, forgive