Everything to Lose - Nicholas Hamilton

Looking at the paint on the wall beside me

It chips and it drips like a tear inside me

Sitting, staring at a blank calculator

Making up a day to tell my mummy later

Walking in circles and making a mess

Missing the mark but I’m trying my best

Hitting pause on the play, like I did yesterday

Hit one note and call it a day

Would the paint still peel if I wasn’t here?

Would the walls cave in or disappear?

And I can’t go back

And answer all their q’s

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

No I can’t go back

And try to face my truth

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose, lose

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose, lose

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Emotional marathon, lay me down, I’m near death

I never even ran and I’m catching my breath

My day a tinker and a sick guitar riff

Then I chug a cup of water like I’m Paula Radcliffe

Walking in circles and making a mess

Missing the mark but I’m trying my best

Hitting pause on the play, like I did yesterday

Hit one note and call it a day

Would the lights stay on if I was gone?

Would I just give up or carry on?

And I can’t go back

And answer all their q’s

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

No I can’t go back

And try to face my truth

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose, lose

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose, lose

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

What if I can’t go back?

What if I can’t stay here?

What if it falls apart?

What if my legs give out?

I’m overwhelmed by fear

What if I break my heart?

And I can’t go back

And answer all their q’s

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

No I can’t go back

And try to face my truth

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose, lose

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose, lose

I’ve got everything to lose

Everything to lose

Lose