Demirden Leblebi - Nazan Öncel

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Belki kalbin kirilir

Gözyasina bogulursun

Gözyasini sakla

Ben ölürsem agla

Bunu senle hiç

Hiç konusmadik biz

Tek tanigim sen

Tek çarem sendin

Beni anlamak istemez miydin

Bu aciyi ben tam yüz sene tasidim

Içimdeki bu aciyla hamal gibi yasadim

Simdi bana saril

Sadece saril

Ve lütfen artik beni dinle

Lanet olasi bir gündü

Kapi açildi ve o geldi

Yüzünde pis bir ifade vardi

Koynunda yilan besledigin o yatakta

Kardesime süt veriyordum o anda

Dogru odaya daldi

Ve buyurgan bir sesle

Beni yanina çagirdi

Kolumdan çekip

Kucagina aldi

Otur dedi kisaca

Evet bu öyle siradan bir gün degildi

Gözyaslarini sakla

Ben ölürsem agla

Sonra bu yana bakma basini çevir derken

Elleri bacaklarimda

Geziniyordu anne

Babacigim yapma dedim

Bir hayvan gibi soluyordu

Iki bacaginin arasinda

Beni mengeneye almisti

Sonra nasil olduysa

Kurtulmayi basardim

Bir odaya kaçtim

Ve o anda sadece haykiriyordum

Defol defol git burdan

O kapiyi yumrukluyor

Ben agliyorum kardesim agliyordu

Her sey bir kabustu

Her sey bir kabus

Kalbim kirik ölecegim

Bilmem ne halt edecegim

Benim kalbim yarali

Bu cehennem azabi

Senin kizin hayatla

Iste böyle tanisti

Baba ne demek anne

Bu kelime bana inan çok yabanci

Çok üzgünüm çok

Çok ne kadar az bir laf

Hiçbirseyi anlatmaya yetmiyor

Gözyaslarini sakla

Ben ölürsem agla

Artik için rahat olsun

Sen bir meleksin anne

Yedigimiz her lokmayi

Kurus kurus ödedik

Nasil ödenirmis ögrendik

Demirden leblebi

Ne yenir nu yutulur

Bazi seyler belki

Belki unutulur

Unutmak var ya

Demirden leblebi

Demirden leblebi

Demirden

Kalbim kirik ölecegim

Bilmem ne halt edecegim

Elimden alinan hayatim

Çalinan masumiyetim

Sikiliyorsa biri kalkip bir sey söylesin

Dokuz yasinda bir çocuk

Hayati böyle tanidi

Annesinin sütü

Babasinin çükü

Bu çocuk senin kizindi anne

Even if it wasn't said, it would be

But now to say

I want to tell

Maybe your heart will break

you drown in tears

hide your tear

cry if i die

never do this with you

we never talked

I only know you

You were my only remedy

Don't you want to understand me

I carried this pain for a hundred years

I lived like a porter with this pain inside me

hug me now

just hug

And please listen to me now

It was a goddamn day

The door opened and he came

He had a nasty expression on his face

In that bed where you feed a snake in your bosom

I was giving milk to my brother at that moment

He went into the right room

And with a commanding voice

He called me to his side

take it off my arm

took it in his lap

“Sit down,” he said briefly.

Yes, this was not an ordinary day.

hide your tears

cry if i die

Then when you say don't look this way, turn your head

His hands on my legs

strolling mother

I said daddy don't do it

He was breathing like an animal

between your legs

He had me in a vise

Then how did it happen

I managed to escape

I ran into a room

And at that moment I was just shouting

get the fuck out of here

He punches the door

I'm crying my brother was crying

everything is a nightmare

everything is a nightmare

I'm going to die with my heart broken

I don't know what the heck

my heart is hurt

This is hell's torment

your daughter with life

That's how he met

what does dad mean mom

This word is very foreign believe me

I'm so sorry so much

What a little word

Can't explain anything

hide your tears

cry if i die

Get comfortable for now

you are an angel mom

Every bite we ate

We paid a penny

We learned how to pay

iron roasted chickpeas

What to eat and what to swallow

Some things maybe

Maybe it's forgotten

Do you have to forget

iron roasted chickpeas

iron roasted chickpeas

of iron

I'm going to die with my heart broken

I don't know what the heck

My life taken from me

My stolen innocence

If he's bored, someone should get up and say something.

a nine-year-old boy

This is how Hayat got to know

mother's milk

daddy's dick

This boy was your daughter, mom