Adamantium - Nardean, Alphamama

I been living these days with an adamantium casing

You can’t penetrate it

And i lost myself, a phantom in the wind pacing

Theres no inhalation

And i know, i learned to expect it

A forced iteration

A narration that i was chasing safety

Maybe, i was seeking mitigation

Of suffering

Scars like losses i was covering

Cause my bones were melted, molded with metal

I couldn’t help it

Cause i was meddled with

Mutant and monster

I lost my conscience

I fell from empress, resorted to temptress

Armed with arms of blades to keep him at a distance

He was armed with arms of dna that had macho imprinted

And so when i resisted

He still insisted

He still insisted

He still insisted

So i’ve been living these days with an adamantium casing

The lie permeating

But i’ll drop it now

All it took was a deep inhalation, a realisation

The callous capricorn i was born

So hard headed i could headbutt a storm

But hardness translates to a tendency to ignore

Half of the song so it can’t resolve

Then i cart along a cartridge of

Supposed sins i’m waiting to have absolved

See i grew up to the gospel of

Be careful and be guilty

And my mother modelled womanhood

As nothing but man’s realty

So i figured out early

I figured out early how to bite down on my tongue

And my brother had a temper, so i learnt to duck young

But the second i realised i’d been raised to be weak

I unleashed the dormant force and took my sword from its sheath

I melted it, and drowned in the power

I woke up starving and ready to devour

Anyone who’d second guess me

Turned myself to acid

To burn if you ingest me

Political police, you’d better say that correctly

Fighting from trauma so i’d slaughter in a frenzy

But i don’t want to be addicted to misery

And i don’t want to assume that men equate to injury

So what if i could write a new narration

Letting go of the need for domination

That was born from constant subjugation

What if i could practice grace in the retaliation?

Mind state dilating

Embracing perspectives to continue upgrading

Cause hate is becoming outdated

And armour won’t heal you

Pain is the medication