Twisted Dream - Mindmaze

Struggling to open my eyes

The feeling I’ve long despised

Desperately feeling the walls come crumbling down

I played the game and held this back

I always feared my will would crack

And the shame would fit me like a perfect crown

The shame I felt

I buried it deep inside

Consuming me

How can I breathe?

How can I see an end when regret consumes and overloads my mind?

How can I move?

How can I start again when these

visions haunt me like a twisted dream?

Wearing the past like a weight

Keeping me held in this state

Relapses hitting me one by one in line

I’ve reached the point of no return

I always thought my heart would learn

To fight the urge to drag me down another time

The pain I felt

It’s all rushing back to me

It just won’t end

How can I breathe?

How can I see an end when regret consumes and overloads my mind?

How can I move?

How can I start again when these

visions haunt me like a twisted dream?

(Thought I’d conquered)

The deafening silence

The ticking of the clock

(Mind it wanders)

Back and forth

Between what’s real or not

(Pain it hurt me)

Over and over

I’m feeling it flooding back

(Over and over and over again)

Pulling me under again

And now it haunts me in my dreams

(Dreams and nightmares)

Nothing’s really ever as it seems

(Seems it should be)

I thought I put it all to rest

(All to rest now)

But now it’s taken me over again

How can I breathe?

How can I see an end when regret consumes and overloads my mind?

How can I move?

How can I start again when these

visions haunt me like a twisted dream?