This Again - Merkules

I be going through this again, through this again

Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again

They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram

Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don’t give a damn

'Cause I been tryna make it, make it, make it out

But I’m losing my patience, patience, patience now

There is no one that can save me, save me, save me now

I’m something like an angel with no halo now

And that’s fuck up

Though luck got me feeling like I’m losin' grip

Or who’s to say, I’m used to the stupid shit

Fans say I’m on fire like my fuse is lit

But all these fake ass rappers got you convinced, uh

I’m feeling sea sick, no ocean

Like fuck a remix, it’s that dough shit

Take my drink off the coast and I’m coastin'

I’m closest to really being me when this Patron hits

It so depending, got no potential

I go so demented when I hold this pencil

Like I wrote a letter to my older self

And I told him don’t make friends

And do it all yourself

But he won’t listen

He’s busy making music for the sake of it

Too worried 'bout a buzz and what they’ll think of it

He’s just scared and unaware of what patience is

I’m tryna make amends 'cause I was crazy then

I be going through this again, through this again

Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again

They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram

Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don’t give a damn

And I ain’t wanna take this, take this, take this route

It’s time for you to face it, face it, face it now

They build you up to break you, break you, break you down

So I love the fact they hate me, hate me, hate me now

I got my face in my palm when I’m by myself

Staring at the bottle like a shot might help

I wasn’t even at the table

When the cards got dealt

I can see my phone ringing, sorry not right now

I got work to do

They’re sayin' Merk’s the truth

If you ain’t heard the news then you should search the tube

But I’m human, they forget that I’m a person too

See you purchased yours

I really earned my views, yah

I been swimming in this water, and it’s toxic

I been feeling like a martyr in this mosh pit

But I’m really like a mobster on some boss shit

You’re not chill, I’m smart

I’m never caught up in the nonsense

Fuck a blogger or a top-5 list

Ray Charles in the ring

You ain’t got no hits

Watch 'em climb to the top just to fall like bricks

Next year I’ll have a hundred thousand on my wrist, yo

I be going through this again, through this again

Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again

They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram

Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don’t give a damn

'Cause I been tryna make it, make it, make it out

But I’m losing my patience, patience, patience now

There is no one that can save me, save me, save me now

I’m something like an angel with no halo now

I be going through this again, through this again

Quit for a week and I drink again, I drink again

They flexing on their Instagram, their Instagram

Go ahead, ask me if I give a damn, I don’t give a damn

Leave me alone, I’m far too gone

Don’t call my phone

I’m not at home