Close to the Edge - Merkules

Please just leave me alone, cause I wanna live my life

This ain’t no family, what you’re doing to me just ain’t right

Can’t let it go to my head, I’m standing close to the edge

Let’s have a toast to the dead, I gotta hope for the best

A good kid, 13, he had a bright future

His father was an alcoholic and a drug user

His mom died when he was seven from a stroke

So getting piss drunk was the only way he could cope

And some would hope that he’d treat his son right

But he doesn’t when he’s drinking, all he wants to do is fight

Life, is a beautiful thing

He says the pain doesn’t hurt him cause it’s more of a sting

Living room covered in blood like it’s a ring

The bottle had dissolved what the memories bring

His son had friends that he’d only see at school

But he was not a fool, so they said he wasn’t cool

Followed the rules, but he wasn’t scared to break 'em

Cause his father was a bully, didn’t have the heart to face him

His friends knew it but still they let it hurt him

His dad is only mad, cause his son is a better person (c'mon)

Was it worth it?

All the pain and the agony?

It’s almost like the reaper gets his way when he’s mad at me

It’s a tragedy, he’s feeling like it’s lose — lose

And to escape it, all he needs to do is use booze

You wouldn’t last a day, walking in this dudes shoes

So fucking out of it he can’t decide for who’s who

Now he’s lost and he’s searching for some new clues

That’s what he gets for not listening, so boo-hoo

Please just leave me alone, cause I wanna live my life

This ain’t no family, what you’re doing to me just ain’t right

Can’t let it go to my head, I’m standing close to the edge

Let’s have a toast to the dead, I gotta hope for the best

15 now, he’s falling out of class

Started drug dealing so he’s saving up some cash

He’s on his last rock cause he gave it to his dad

Soon he’ll have enough paper to pay for his own flat

But if he does it then his dad will be stunned

Cause the only thing he ever really had was his son

Underneath his pillow where he stashes his gun

When he got it he would go out, and just blast it for fun

Now he needs it cause the crack and the scums

See he forgot about his family, and that’s number 1

He moved out, now his dads just a bum

Every now and then he’d hand over the last of his crumbs

It’s sad cause his mum would be crying if she knew it

Lookin' down on him like «Why you gotta do this?»

So stupid, but he felt he never had the chance

So when he meets with the devil, he better do the dance

All his friends looking up to him like, «you the man»

Cause they see him make som money off of moving grams

So impressionable he was always willing

'Till he sold his dad the crack that actually killed him (that's a shame)

Please just leave me alone, cause I wanna live my life

This ain’t no family, what you’re doing to me just ain’t right

Can’t let it go to my head, I’m standing close to the edge

Let’s have a toast to the dead, I gotta hope for the best