Losing My Mind - Mbnel

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling from my eyes and my perspective

If it's money to be made then I'ma get it

I ain't starting nothing if I wasn't plannin' to finish

All I do is express my feelings in my music I still feel nobody gets it

If I

Could paint a picture worth a million words

Murder in tha air, they get that urge then they gon start to purge

Done with putting myself second, it's time to put me first

And I had learn these lessons, when life start getting worse

Letter to my momma I apologize

For all tha times I made you cry

And every time she seen me put that pistol by my side

Look inside my eyes, it just seem like I'm angry all tha time

But deep inside, I'm tryna hide the fact I'm really scared to die

And everytime

I feel like I'ma loose my mind

To fuck I look like crying

Coming from that jungle, gave me heart of lions

Aye, I just wanna shine

You ain't a man, if you ain't fall and got back up at least a hunnid times

This shit get hectic

Diamonds dancing on my necklace

I'm getting tired of doing shit to be accepted

Fuck every meeting at every label, got use to being rejected

Every word in every verse, I ever said just know I meant it

I am not promoting violence, I just speak on what I'm living

Ion ask for nothin' back, ion count the times I was helping

All tha times that I gave back, but its like I don't get my credit

But when I do some for myself, they got the nerve, to call me selfish

Ain't it crazy...

Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me

Ain't it crazy...

Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me

Ain't it crazy...

Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me

Ain't it crazy...

Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me

Stuck between rapping, drilling or tryna make some melodies

They telling me, that I could blow, if I make songs they was telling me

I tell em I making songs for the people that relate to me

My chemistry with rappers is off its hard me to make friends with me

And lately I been DND I ain't been checking my messages

I started living better when I don't compare who's next to me

I'm holding on weaponry

Sad to say it's what's protecting me

Feel like I'm close to blowing just let me show u the best of me

If I'm calling you my brother just don't turn you ain't gotta question me

You tell me that you love me, is you or the ecstasy

Message to my bitch, you get you my all just don't think the less of me

And I've been stirring up the pot, they asking for the recipe

I use to have heart, till them losses just took the rest of me

Life ain't gave me lemons, I stole it right off the lemon tree

SRT engine I'm speeding drinking onna Hennessy

And god ain't gave me answers, I wanted he kept on testing me

Apparently it worked

Cuz I stood tall through the adversity

I'm sorry my child, I keep this pistol on me personally

Hard to live normal, when you ain't kno who tryna murder me

Don't question when you wit me, n why I move wit urgency

Before I had the diamonds, was robbing and doing burglaries

I'm glad I had these flaws, cuz I ain't want to fit in perfectly

Sick I got that call, when Brodie ain't make it out tha surgery

Mistakes, I made, help me make it, ain't do it purposely

Please excuse my French, don't want you thinking it's rude of me

Been shopping for some acres so fuck a gated community irs

Enough that, bro just took 20 ain't even 20 yet

We just tryna catch a succa, put bullets into his fitted cap