Lonely - Marlon Craft

I’m lonely, I could turn a W to an L

I’m lonely, I could take something wonderful, make it hell

I been tryna fill a void I don’t understand, I don’t know its shape

Eyes closed, tryna fit different shit in this empty space

To no avail, I’m lonely, it’s cold as hell

In the part of my soul where love and the noble notions dwell

I’m lonely, I don’t get what I’m looking for, but I search on

Tryna make a map of places where I’ve never gone

I’m lonely, shit ain’t everybody?

I wash my head with this human condition, but I don’t feel cleansed I feel

lonely yo

Been avoiding time with myself, and now I owe me, though

Every time we together I focus on something phoney, I’m lonely

But I don’t wanna settle

Sometimes I’d rather be unhappy than to be alone

Tell myself I need to bone but truth is that I need a home

I been rationalizing time that’s spent with people that don’t inspire me

Bein' lonely sucks I’m startin' to lose my spirit’s trust

Scared of what I want I been starting to fear my lust

If i can’t tell myself the whole truth than the lyrics must

Like i should come here to stroke but I know I came here to bust

Man-made most of my woes be

Feel like we do half what we do ‘cause we bored, we just be lonely

I feel like most people’d rather use me than to know me

I feel like I’m a bitch cuz i got it good but be feeling bad

And cockiness is just fear in drag

I see a lot of Ru Pauls of emotions

I say i ain’t judgin' a lot, but I do and I know it

Wish I was more easy going, maybe I wouldn’t feel lonely

But sometimes we ain’t inclined to be the men we wanna be

Like shit, without this critical lens, I couldn’t see

But i don’t know, cuz theres a lot of things I thought i couldn’t be

And I’m starting to become all them, maybe theres hope for us

This the most self involved and the most communal rhyme

We all in search of people who can relate

Their absence negative space, shit without em there is no alone

So i know they out their fo' me or I wouldn’t feel lonely

I remember, when it wasn’t cool to feel lonely

Then somewhere along the way kid cudi made it ok

But now we fetishize it it’s a style to be tried n'

Take this pill if you don’t like it, you don’t have to feel lonely

And that ain’t never been me, but i ain’t that far

Buzz buzz goes the sound of the anti-depressant

Notifications, I’ma need me three grams of some mentions

Tell me you like the online me so the real me don’t feel so lonely

I’m jus being real homie, this ain’t a sad song

This ain’t a mad song, but i do worry

‘cause, I been tryna write some next level shit lately

And this is it, so I’m scared that my loneliness makes me

Like do i need it to shine, what if I leave it behind

Will i die young if I continue to just bleed from my mind

And I guess thats something only time can show me

For now I gotta go, shit I’m late to meet the homies.

lonely