Not OK - Maria Mena

It’s not like I chose this

I was not given a choice

In a room full of stories

Mine was just another voice

How does she do it

Without making any sound?

I cry after hours

And scream when no one is around

Here comes a battle

Here’s another uphill climb

So strap on some courage

You should be well prepared this time

Just because I’m still standing

Just because I have survived

Doesn’t mean I don’t get scared

Or wanna give up every time

'Cause I don’t feel like being strong today

I wanna fall apart sometimes

I wanna break

Next time they ask I’ll tell the truth and I’ll say

That I’m not ok

That I’m not ok

I don’t feel like carrying all this weight

Or being broken around those who can’t relate

Next time they ask I’ll tell the truth and I’ll say

That I’m not ok

That I’m not-

After he left us

After everything went dark

She’s all that matters

She’s my only little spark

It’s not like I don’t want to

Stay in bed, never leave home

But if I don’t do it

Chances are it won’t get done

'Cause I don’t feel like being strong today

I wanna fall apart sometimes

I wanna break

Next time they ask I’ll tell the truth and I’ll say

That I’m not ok

That I’m not ok

I don’t feel like carrying all this weight

Or being broken around those who can’t relate

Next time they ask I’ll tell the truth and I’ll say

That I’m not ok

That I’m not ok (ohh)

That I’m not ok

That I’m not ok (ohh)

That I’m not ok

(I'm not ok)

Oh, I’m not ok

(Ohh)

I’m not ok (ohh)

Oh, ohh

God gives His toughest

Battles to the strongest ones

That He built out of courage

In the image of His only son

And I am a soldier

I can take the whole world on

So watch as I fight this

And give your praise once I have won