Back to Myself - Malina

Nothing to recall

What if I just cannot give a name

To what I think there is to blame

I’m only

Freezing it out

Castaway too

Numb to feel

Hail or silk or burning steel

I’m wounded by wars

I never really fought

Danny says it happens

But I would rather say

I’m deserving my time

To breathe and scream it out

And how would anyone expect me Here to shout

«I'm glad myself is back»

I long to cry out loud

I’ve been outside myself

And frosting in your doubts

But I won’t trail along with…

Lithium as I wake up Coffee to anaesthetize my shame

Doctors make it harder,

I’d only smoke it away

How can I throw it all to waist,

That bitter taste

And now it’s my turn

To spread it all about

You thought you’d get away

With all your lies so proud?

But I won’t trail along

It’s time to breathe and scream it out

I’ve been outside myself

And frosting in your doubts

But the ice is gonna crack.