VI - Make A Change... Kill Yourself

For as long as I remember

During stormy nights I’ve pictured myself on a raft

In pitch blackness in the middle of the ocean

Sky-high waves and thunder

Winds that can be felt to the bone

I battle for survival against the forces of nature

As the waves swallow me whole

I succumb… I give in

I can’t see anything, but I drink, oh how I drink

My thirst is insatiable, and my body can take no more

Yet I drink till I can hold no more

What has been a lifelong dream, shall be a dream no more

As I wander into the sea

The waves are no match for my many fantasies

The cold water soothes me

The waves embrace and cradle me

To feel such warmth and comfort after so many years of torment

I want more!

I drink and I’m cradled

For once I’m loved

I drink and I drink with a maddening lust

As I’m slowly swallowed by the dark depths