Contradiction's Maze - Maimouna Youseff, Oddisee

I think I’m in a maze

I’m feeling conflicted within my brain

All these contradictions got me feeling strange

Is this a phase

Or is this the way?

I wanna make nonstop profit

I wanna make it non-profit

Close down a store when I go shopping

Open up the floor for a closed topic

And relax on a beach in remote tropics

But grind like I’m broke and I’m so jobless

Feeling like it’s me against the world- It’s the other way around:

We polluting and we won’t stop it

I wanna stay at home and play Xbox

But my homies keep on hitting up my inbox

Say it’s been a long time since they seen me

So I’m cutting off the T. V and I meet em at the next spot

I think I want a job in an office

I am the epitome of what a boss is

A paycheck every two weeks

Over losing out on sleep for the fear that I go starving

And yet I wanna take more risk

I don’t wanna take more losses

Wanna be a better spender but I like the idea of not caring what the cost is

I wanna tell the truth even when it hurts, but when I get it back I’d rather

have the blow softened

Wanna pray 5 times a day, am I heading to the mosque?

Prolly not, I don’t go often

In the kitchen cooking dinner yeah I made that

Feelin' lazy so I’ll prolly order takeout

Better yet I’m really fiending for some Shake Shack

Lookin at the plate like I gotta keep my weight down

In a circle of self worth and judgment

How you match it up gets puzzling

How to know enough is enough when your lust for a much of enough it feels just

as real as a something

I think I’m in a maze

I’m feeling conflicted within my brain

All these contradictions got me feeling strange

Is this a phase

Or is this the way?

I think I’m in a maze

I’m feeling conflicted within my brain

All these contradictions got me feeling strange

Is this a phase

Or is this the way?

I pretend that I listen a lot when people say things I don’t really care about

In one ear and it goes out

And you wouldn’t even notice that my head was in the cloud

But my inner voice really wanna shout

Quit crying you ain’t dying

But I reply with legitimate advice like

«Keep trying they hiring»

But I really wanna tell them that they wasting time

More importantly they wasting mine

That’s harsh and I’m not cold

Yeah I’m from the Capitol but I’m not bold

I guess I really am a nice guy

Keep hearing though that they don’t win races

So I wanna be a track star

Laughing at the people tripping on they own laces

That’s tasteless and I got style

And I ain’t got wings but I got house

And that’s why folks wanna pick my brain

I saw the big picture when I picked my frame

But I think most art’s pretentious

Prolly just surrounded by the egocentric

And that rubbed off, so

I say things that go along with the grain like

Yeah I meant it

I think I’m in a maze

I’m feeling conflicted within my brain

All these contradictions got me feeling strange

Is this a phase

Or is this the way?

I think I’m in a maze

I’m feeling conflicted within my brain

All these contradictions got me feeling strange

Is this a phase

Or is this the way?

I think I’m in a maze (in a maze)

I feel like conflicting with inner brain (yeaah)

All these contradictions got me feeling strange (feelin strange)

Is this a phase (Is this a phase)

Or is this the way?

(Is this the way)