Forestdale - Lil Xtra

I’m not running from myself but the drugs didn’t help

Getting numb to avoid all the pain that we felt

Some are lost in the future, some in the past

All we had was each other but we knew it wouldn’t last

'Cause all my homies have a good reason

Say I’m fine but no one believes it

I know that they’re gone but I can still feel it

I was numb to the bone, in the crowd all alone

Getting sick in my life, getting high just to cope

And my plans fall to pieces, heart turn to stone

Cross my location, disconnect phone

I’m sorry, you have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer

in service

It’s hard to separate facts from the fiction

It’s hard to separate drugs from addiction

But I shoulda known better than

Thinking I was bigger than this

Read it in my suicide letter

When you find it, if you find it, I’ve been

A little better but

I’m holding it together just barely

You can return the sweater

When you find it, if you find it

I had my back to the wall, everything was going wrong

Need to feel a little love, don’t feel anything at all

And now I can’t a future

We were tryna find ourselves, getting lost in the war

I wish I could go back, give 'em all hope

I wish I could go back, tell 'em go home

Now I’m so low, not even a photo

How can you escape when your life is a problem?

And now I’m lost in my head, leaving everyone on read

I can never get 'em out now, words I should’ve said

Now I don’t have a future, can’t stand my past

I just wanna see my friends, but I’ll never get 'em back

I just wanna see my friends, but I’ll never get 'em back

But I shoulda known better than

Thinking I was bigger than this

Read it in my suicide letter

When you find it, if you find it, I’ve been

A little better but

I’m holding it together just barely

You can return the sweater

When you find it, if you find it