Disrespected - Lil Xtra

'Cause I felt different in your presence

You and me meant to be like Mike and Eleven

But this cycle gets depressing

Now we both feel disrespected

I didn’t mean to cling, I was afraid to lose my blessings

When I first saw you, you were eyeing me at work

I almost didn’t ask, I didn’t want to be a jerk

You were straight out of a dream

Eighteen and I was twenty

Not so much in common, but it felt like it was plenty

Just to feel your touch back when we were getting fucked up

Making out on drug rugs and going out on drug runs

Couple months and then you turned to a ghost

I see you out with someone else, I guess I won’t approach

A while later and you’re back again for round two

I wish I found the self-respect to just reject you

'Cause life was different back when you were riding shotgun

Tried to create a reason to stay, you didn’t want one

If I tell you that I’m fine

Would you know that it’s a lie?

I get fucked up every time

Every time I think of you

And I’m stuck-up in your eyes

I don’t want to make you mine

I just want to love you right

And I won’t fall, but that’s a lie

We’re alone, we’re together

I couldn’t be your home, couldn’t make you feel better

I know it feels like nobody gets you

Dark heart, dark arts in your bedroom

And when your mom moved away

You were begging me to stay

But I needed my space

You were taking blunts to the face

And I wasn’t feeling that

There’s a time and a place

And we were both crying out for help

It’s so hard to see each other

When you’re focused on yourself

I’ve been lost for so long

You got me feeling low

Deep inside the ground

I love it when you leave

Now I hate when you’re around

She says «I couldn’t stay, didn’t know what else to do

'Cause I believe in love, I just don’t believe in-

I just don’t believe in you»

If I tell you that I’m fine

Would you know that it’s a lie?

I get fucked up every time

Every time I think of you

And I’m stuck-up in your eyes

I don’t want to make you mine

I just want to love you right

And I won’t fall, but that’s a lie

And now I know I’ve been abandoned at my post

You used to say you think of me, I know you probably don’t

'Cause I’m broke and devoid of hope

No need to convince me that my life is a fucking joke

Been that way since fifth grade and this hurt is here to say

Rain on everyone’s parade when you always find a way

To hurt yourself and be in pain every second, every day

And slowly come to realize it’s never gonna go away