Deathwish - Lil Xtra

Once upon a long long time ago

I used to have these dreams I thought

One day I’d find some purpose

Over time I’ve realized I am not

Conquering the things I fear

Capable of breaking through

Lost the things I once held dear

I don’t know what the fuck to do

Left beliefs that once defined me

My best days are long behind me

Half the time I’m breathing in

I’m dreaming of the day I finally stop

Check my feelings at the door

I don’t know what I’m fighting for

I used to pray that things would change

But now I’m well aware they’re not

Cause I used to say

Everything will be alright

But it never will be

So I stay in my bed

And I hate when you call

And say you should come out tonight

I just bought an ounce

I’m gonna smoke it instead

Yeah

Stop fucking telling me I’m fine

I hate the way you keep your cool

I’m aware you’re always right

Go on and play me for the fool

Take the blood out of my veins

Go on do your worst to me

I wouldn’t wish this type of pain

On my own worst enemy

Lay in bed but never sleep

I tried to fight but I’m too weak

And everytime I try to speak

I end up drunk and sobbing on the floor

Heared you’re doing better now

It makes it worse I don’t know how

The world keeps turning I can’t breath

I just can’t do this anymore

Cause I used to say

Everything will be alright

But it never will be

So I stay in my bed

And I hate when you call

And say you should come out tonight

I just bought an ounce

I’m gonna smoke it instead

Yeah

I used to pray that everything would be alright

But nothing could hear me

Cause there’s nothing

Nothing at all

Cause I used to say

Everything will be alright

But it never will be

So I stay in my bed

And I hate when you call

And say you should come out tonight

I just bought an ounce

I’m gonna smoke it instead

I used to pray

Everything would be alright

But it never will be

So I stay in my bed

And I won’t take your call

I’m not going out tonight

I’ll never be alright

I wish I was dead

Yeah

I used to pray that everything would be alright

But it never will be

I wish I

Wish I was dead