Anxiety - Lil Xtra

Holding in my heart

It’s beating like it’s coming through my chest

Panicking again I just can’t seem to catch my fucking breath

Count to 10 but nothing’s changin'

Thoughts are raging in my head

Every time I swear this is the last time I’ll get out of bed

But you said I was on my own

I’ve never quite felt so alone

But this anxiety inside of me keeps pushing me ahead

Medication all I need

It’s just as bad as the disease

When I abide by my prescriptions

I keep wishing I was dead

You are my hate

You follow me

My only strength, why can’t you see?

You’re my best friend

My worst enemy

I can’t live without you

But with you, I can’t breathe

You’re breaking up, I barely hear you through the static on your phone

I’ll be fine, I just need time to heal so please leave me alone

Panicking again that anything you say might not be real

That you never loved me

You just loved the way I made you feel

But you said I was someone else

You hate the way I hate myself

But this anxiety inside of me, it keeps me up at night

You want me and I want more

I jump and wash up on the shore

Now I’ve chosen

I’m broken from my whole fucking life

You are my hate

You follow me

My only strength, why can’t you see?

You’re my best friend

My worst enemy

I can’t live without you

But with you I can’t breathe

Your God doesn’t love me

Your God doesn’t love me

Your God doesn’t love me

And I can’t breathe