Self Destruction - Lil Narnia

Wishing you well

Even though you’re with someone else

And nothing but the numbness helps

When there’s nothing to do

Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you

Wishing you well

Even though now you’re someone else

Couldn’t tell you how it felt

How much it hurts seeing you

So different now its what distance will do

Every second awake

Every step that I take is another one back

Hoping one day you’ll ask if I’m okay

I’ll tell you everything if you care to know

What its like in this hell

Hoping you’re doing well

So numb I cannot feel anything but this guilt inside of me

Blame myself for things I can’t change all because of you

I love the way that you fucked me

Hate every something that we could have been

Again and again and again and again

Why can’t you just love me for who I am

Why am I always so fucking upset

All of my pain and my love is the same

It comes from a place with no one else to blame

Other than me its all self inflected

Wounds that bleed inside and no one can see

Self destruction is such a beautiful thing

How does it feel to watch me suffering

How does it feel to watch me suffering while I’m