ANXIETY - Lil Darkie

I took a second out my day to calm the fuck down

Now I got one less second to do something

What the fuck now my nigga

Uh, I figure it’s genetic man it suck how

The cards you got are permanent and shape the way you talk out loud

Or take a walk down town

I should be thinking bout the way the trees are looking

Or the smell of pizza cooking

Or the sound the breeze is workin' into me

Instead I’m hurting

Avoiding the moment

I pull the curtain

Hide me!

Cuz I don’t know what your intentions are at all

I feel so small and minuscule I want to call

To anyone who’ll stop this drenching of my soul

I feel the wall and kick right through

I fought it

Hot head

I wanna plant some flowers not the

Potted kind

I feel the power my

Retarded mind

Has got inside it find it

Hard to mind

My own business

My flow quick as a missile

Until it slow down

A glow stick and it click

Oh what a cool sound

I showed my momma

My music and she was so proud

She told me future

I choose it that hit me profound

I forget to breathe and

Where I put my damn keys

That’s a problem

Frame freeze it

Need it

Or so it seems

Cuz every picture

Fade away when no one there to see

People been living for forever wit no therapy

So why I’m different

It ain’t bout yo feelings

Our society is slipping

No support without a family

This paper got me thinking

If I gave him what I owe

Then why the fuck I gotta tip him nigga

This money’s uncaring

And it ain’t no fun sharing

But you selfish if you don’t

And if you do you must be happy right?

If higher numbers made you number wouldn’t that be nice?

I need to lay down

Just lie dead

I wanna run away to somewhere I can

Rest my head

The birds sound beautiful

The light bounce off

Off my fingers and my cuticles

I bite down soft on em

My father point it out now I’m embarrassed

I don’t know who I’d be without my parents

Work with what you got

They taught me

To not blow up the spot

Be healthy

And don’t talk down cops

Whether wealthy or

Poor they got more Glocks

Than you ever will

You felt it before

That’s good advice

Walking down the street

High then a kite

Bright light flashing

Ashing the blunt

The neighborhood is nice

THEY STAY ADDICTED TO THE CASH FLOW

MMM AND I’m JUST LAYING ON THE GRASS LIL MAMA

CAN YOU WATCH A NIGGA PASS THO?

MMM SEE HIM LEAVE YOU IN THE PAST

AND AMASS THOSE COMMAS?

STUPID LIL BITCH HATING ON ME

CUZ I AIN’T SUCKIN NO DICK FOR NO APPROVAL

OR A RUBLE WHATCHU ON A

HALF MADE PLAN

«LEMME GET THAT IN ADVANCE

IM TOO SCARED TO TAKE A CHANGE

I JUST NEED A LOT OF DOLLAS IN MY PANTS»

DO YA DANCE

IMMA DO MINE

FINE WITH BEING BROKE

ALL MY FIGURES COME IN DUE TIME

YA HONOR

THEY TRYNA GET A NEW PIECE OF MINE

BUT ALL THESE PEOPLE NEED AQUIRE

IS A NEW PEACE OF MIND

Hide me!

Cuz I don’t know what your intentions are at all

I feel so small and minuscule I want to call

To anyone who’ll stop this drenching of my soul

I feel the wall and kick right through

I fought it

La la la la la la la la lalala

La la la la la la la la lalala

La la la la la la la la lalala

La la la la la la la la lalala

La la la la la la la la lalala

Hey Josh, it’s Mom, I was just tryna get a hold of you to see how you were doing

Um, I don’t even know if you’re in… or somewhere else

Just wanna catch up with you

When you get a minute, call me back, okay?

Love you