Last Letter - LIA

I start this letter, saying I wish I had been better, I have no secrets but I

have many regrets, as If I had lamentations in a million heads

What does it matter who cares, I’ve been having many nightmares,

are there demons under my bed or on the stairs?

I’m watching dark and luminous shadows, fuck it also I´ve been having a lot of

bad-thoughts

I´m tired of being afraid to go to sleep and suffer from a sleep paralysis,

very deep I see shits that even doesn´t exist, and dreams that tell me to cut

my own wrist

I´m tired of hearing whispers, wake up and not being able to move any of my

fucking fingers, maybe all is just my mind or actually I´m going insane,

fuck it I have and unknown pain, I´m tired of just expressing complaint after

complaint

Why am I feeling like this, right now I´m having no peace, plus everyday life

is losing its meaning, fuck it the slump is winning, and despair is singing

Even my family hates me, they don´t show it but I feel their contempt,

I want to be accepted, I´m doing my best attempt, all my life is full of

broken dreams, living in this way, what the fuck it means?

Reminding comes remorse, all my life I was the worst, this gun so close

increase my pulse I’m writing my last words and I’m losing my damn force

(Verse two)

All my life I´ve tried to be the cool kid, but they just call me bullshit

And I don’t have a self-steem problem, I only have a lot of things and I don´t

know how to solve them, I feel totally alone, plus in this home only exist an

isolation storm

I got friends but they don’t know what it really happends, I only think about a

million of ends, I´m tired of dreaming about the same girl, fuck it I know I

can´t get her back to my world, she´s already happy, she´s having fun at her

life´s party

I can´t steal her joy, I just have to accept that I am only a stupid boy,

damn it´s hard to be gloomy, I don´t want to be a nuisance So please excuse me

But I´ve been treated like crap, considered as scrap, and It´s more difficult

to be following the dream of rap, I feel lower than shit, I´m losing the life´s

sense bit by bit

I pretend to do a lot of things, but I can´t get them any way, maybe I wasn´t

born with wings, maybe I can never fly, that’s why It´s better to finally say

goodbay

Reminding comes remorse, all my life I was the worst, this gun so close

increase my pulse I’m writing my last words and I’m losing my damn force

(Verse three)

Lately I´ve been feeling empty, and I becoming so unfriendly, I don´t like to

be like this, but my soul is totally freeze

I´m beginning to hate myself, god look at me, I´m begging for help,

I try to be positive but everytime I breathe I got a relapse, because I

realize about the facts, I feel the loneliness, fuck it I´m feeling the

emptiness

My soul is getting more hole, right now I have lost every fucking goal,

I ask to myself, why should I keep living?

Everyday something inside me is dying and all my hope is leaving,

and the world is losing its decency, now all these mo´fuckers are acting

frenzy

Fuck ´em all and fuck the world, maybe I don´t belong here, music makes me

strong, but why am I feeling so wrong?

Fuck it I can´t take it anymore, life is a dirty whore, please forgive me by

everything I´m going to do my lord, I can´t see to no-one, I´m taking the

fucking shotgun, maybe you´ll miss me when I finally have gone

Reminding comes remorse, all my life I was the worst, this gun so close

increase my pulse I’m writing my last words and I’m losing my damn force