Godspeed - Lew

Me and dark days got a close bond

High functional depression hit from all sides

It’s nothing nice

I’m going through it, you know, hard times

Probably couldn’t tell from all the shit that i post online

That’s not the real me

I inherited my moms smile

Use it as a bandage just to cover up the scars now

I’m still damaged

I get up every time i fall down

Cuz real niggas get up every time they fall down

I’m still standing…

You see i question what’s in store for me

Like is there more for me?

Well shit hopefully

I hope life circumstances never corner me

Into being what i can’t afford to be or people mourning me, know what i’m sayin?

My anxiety makes it harder to sleep

Been staring at the ceiling so long that it’s staring at me

Losing balance, i been slipping like i’m walking on grease

But stand tall cuz thats how my niggas need me to be

I need peace

But my heart is in pieces

If i’m lost i need guidance from the man i believe in

Lord i know you made me strong, but i can’t just keep fighting these demons

I need hope, i need sign from you, something to keep me afloat in this life cuz

it feels like i’m sinking, what’s the plan?

what’s reason for the lessons you

teach me?

just a man so i do not understand your thinking, show me the light,

make it bright so that way i can see it

Gotta feel my around as i walk through the dark

Can’t see the finish but i know its better than where i started

Young nigga in the tank with the biggest of sharks

Somehow drowning in the pressure is the scariest part

It’s amazing that we are where we are

When i want to see my growth i just look at my scars

When i want to see myself I just look to the stars

Cuz i always told myself if ima reach then ima reach too far

2 in the morning with the world on my mind

Heavy thoughts as the moon light peaks through the blinds

It’s a couple things i’m hoping to find

My therapist said it’s not about the years in your life but what you do with

the time

Which made me question what i’m doing with mine

Cuz i don’t know if ima be here when the sunlight rise

And if i’m gone before the sun light sky i’ll thank the universe for gifting me

time cuz the just being here was beating the odds

Lately bad luck been interfering

Life been tough but i’m persevering

I know pain but i never fear it

Cuz you can break bones yeah but not my spirit

Lately bad luck been interfering

Life been tough but i’m persevering

I know pain but i never fear it

Cuz you can break bones yeah but not my spirit, nigga…