Hurt Myself - KnowMads

Sometimes I think about if I lived a different way

Or if I ended it the way I planned on Christmas day

Never grew into a man what would the people think

I hate alcohol because alcohol is a evil drink

Nice that I don’t care to remember at all and starin at the wall just wishin

that that bitch would call back

Slip and fall back into my depression deeper

No answer but experience is the greatest teacher

Cause now I don’t fear nothin not even the Grim Reaper

I’ve been deeper, people who promised me to be for me forever they wasn’t there

either

My family treated my like a old pair of sneakers

Worn out on the road with my speakers blown out

Thinkin out loud «What the fuck am I gonna do now»

Wasn’t the proudest of my moments when I begged a homie to let me sleep on his

couch tomorrow cause I felt so lonely

In the studio she said «You seem unusual, cause you’re the one that shown me

that life is beautiful»

Truth used to go so far I felt like now honesty seems to have a very short

shelf life

The truth hurts I tried to hurt my self twice, first with sleeping pills,

the second time I tried a knife

I never felt that type of crazy in my life, made a atheist feel like I should

pray to Jesus Christ

I don’t even know if god can hear me right

But belief in something greater made my spirit fight

Even when your window is fogged up plus your job sucks coughen up a few bucks

What a dreary life.

Let me reiterate move into a bigger state

Down a interstate in the interest of bigger dinner plates

Plan to shine like some stars that don’t denigrate