Deathbed - Kalie Shorr

I love saving your seat at the table

Getting high, picking out names

And holding your cake when you blow out the candles

A text when I get off the plane

I hate changes

And surprises make me mad

Our plans started fading

When I told god and he laughed

Thought I’d be holding your hand on my deathbed

Never thought love would die before we did

So I mourn and I cry, act like you’re not alive

To convince myself this is the end

Never thought you could push me towards madness

Now I’m Alice in the rabbit hole

It’s like the past the six months just hit me all at once

Reaching for something to hold

I hate changes

Not knowing makes me insane

So now I’m waiting

For someone to take your place

Thought I’d be holding your hand on my deathbed

Never thought love would die before we did

So I mourn and I cry, act like you’re not alive

To convince myself this is the end

Where do promises go

When nobody kept them?

If you don’t mean those words

You shouldn’t have said them

And how should I kill

All the dreams that we had?

Cause I can’t just forget

A life I won’t get back

Will I be thinking of you on my death bed?

What if nobody wanted me like you did?

So I mourn and I cry, act like you’re not alive

To convince myself this the end

Thought I’d be holding your hand on my death bed

Never thought love would die before we did

So I mourn and I cry act like you’re not alive

To convince myself this is the end

Thought I’d be holding your hand…