Maintain Course - JZAC

I saw you drift away I watched you go the wrong direction

I tried reaching out somewhere, but we lost connection

Loss of words but I finally got the courage

Been a mess and this depression really getting on my nerves

Guess it could be worse

Time to get my act together

I really hate that all the pain makes the rapping better

In a rut, what the fuck, spill my drink, spill my guts, I’ve been stuck,

and its ugh what the fuck

They be looking at me crazy when they stare at me

I learned a guarantee ain’t even a guarantee

I lost my mind over the summer temporarily

They said it gets better apparently… yeah right

But I’m aight though I don’t need a pity party

I understand that you really sorry

But really sorry ain’t gonna really help so don’t get me started

I pour my heart and soul don’t compare me to any artist, that’s any artist

I’ve been down and out

I ain’t ever counted out

Thoughts spinning circles in my head like a roundabout

Upset cuz I wasn’t up next

And relationships ruined I’m obsessed with success

Got my back against the wall

Back against it all

Haven’t heard from you in months I ain’t flattered that you called

Saying that I changed nah I naturally evolved

That’s some shit you’d understand if you were actually involved

Receiving criticism, a ton of it

Learning to juggle it

I miss doing shit for the fun of it

And I ain’t in denial but it’s hard to crack a smile

When the years feel like months and the bills start to pile

Momma still gone working minimum wage

Gotta do something quick I’m at a critical stage

But, I ain’t copping out

Not until my coffins out

Anyone who standing in the way I’ma chop em down

I’ma chop em down

Anyone who standing in the way I’ma chop em down

What’s the plan again, tell me what’s the plan again

I’m so numb it’s been hard for me to channel in

I’m feeling manic like everyone is a mannequin

And they don’t even blink while I’m panicking (deep breath)

I feel you boy I been through it

I’ve seen my house flood with alcohol and deeply get ruined

I’ve seen some shit I wouldn’t even tell a therapist

I remember being seven with my parents like cut it out that’s embarrassing

Like God damn how the fuck it get like this

Am I the only kid in class who really live like this

Couldn’t kill you to at least try

If I just smile, keep quiet then I’ll sneak by, like nothing’s wrong

I watched the evils destroy us

When you the captain of the ship it’s all a part of the voyage

It’s like you gave your all and it’s still failure

I learned a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor

Cuz, even when it’s pouring I ain’t letting waves rock the boat

Pops came to America I’m blessed the man got off the boat

Promise I’ma blow while these motherfuckers talk the most

I don’t need help so don’t toss the rope

Really think it’s funny that dummies all advantaged

Act like opportunities ain’t ever gonna vanish

Living in a bubble

That’s asking for some trouble

Man I learned to eat the dirt and appreciate the struggle

I been going through the hustle since before I even knew what it meant

I wouldn’t change shit homie I would do it again

That’s the formula I figured out that’s proven to win

We take what Mother Nature gives and just move with the wind

And maintain course