My Fantasy Destroyed - Judicator

I walk alone at night, hoping that I’ll find

Epiphany or more, a greater understanding

Always knew that I’d be alone

Never thought that I’d find a home

Home, a different meaning

Who is solitary

Always knew that I’d die alone

Never thought that I’d find someone

Someone to be by my side

To help me find the fleeting light

Full moon shine--I'm swimming in my deepest fears

Blackest skies--a highway jam that’s in my head

Nevermind--something is here

Crashing waves--I'm treading in the blackened waves

Flowing blood--relentless routing in my head

Pounding fear--time to reveal

Feeling now that my brother’s tale

Doesn’t have a happy end

End to a broken line

This wretched soul, observer

Always knew I was special, I

I’m taken back by

By the surreal feelings here

Almost like a dreamworld here

Glowing moon--it's almost like a lucid dream

Lurking doom--or is it just a catalyst?

Nevermind--time to go back

Gentle wind--I look up to his room alight

So exposed--I'm standing naked in the rain

Now return--to numbing death

Cancer leaves families exposed

Rips, cracks into canyon walls

Step by step up to his room

Lying there, mother beside

Solo: Tony

Fantasy is torn apart

Reality is fucking stark

Stark in the face of tears

Eyes that show our fears

Mom caresses withered hands

Hold on tight and pray loud

Loud is the comfort of men

Yet they’re silent in their pride

Indoor breeze--this surely cannot happen now

Earned your keys--into another bleaker world

Blood and bone--you won’t escape

Only smoke--emergency to save his life

Without fire--no longer am I here alone

Earned your keys--time to grow up