Imagine If - Johnny Gallagher

Every stitch of clothing, every strand of hair

My skin and bones, my toe and fingernails

All my vital organs, appendages, and such

I’m not sure

Every word I say, even the promises

Every tear and every laugh and every kiss

The good dreams and the bad ones

The whispers and the screams

I’m not sure

I doubt everything about me

Including me

Choices all around me but which one is mine

I never thought that I would be so hard to find

I’ve looked in every mirror

And picture from the past

I’m not there

I’ve never been decisive but this takes the cake

Existential nervousness that I can’t shake

I used to be so different

Once I trusted and once I just played

And I can’t be too sure

Just when it was that I changed

And I can’t look at anything

Without seeing a million different ways it could be

Including me