Surrender / Disaster Boy - James Colt

I ain’t really wanna leave but I had to

I ain’t really mean to be in a bad mood

I ain’t never mean to be such a bad dude

But I know now I can never have you

It’s a blessing I’m breathing to this day

I been stressed and smoking in the rain

Looking past it love ends tragic

It ain’t magic

Eventually it fades

Shit hurts and I’ll never feel the same

I’m cursed and I got no one to blame

These thoughts are trapped inside my brain

This cash won’t never hear the pain

Ambition killed my innocence

Never thought twice

Even right here as I scribble this

On this long night

I see your shadow lurking even in the spotlight

My heart is cold and frozen don’t care if you die

Surrender yourself to the god of us too

Cause it’s haunting me heavy, it’s haunting you too

So surrender yourself to the god of us too

If you want me and love me then show me you do

Another emo song

Another emo song

I hurt myself again

I don’t deserve no friends

My heart it breaks and bends

Disaster boy till end

I hurt myself again

I don’t deserve no friends

My heart it breaks and bends

Disaster boy till end

Everybody wanna be like me

Except me cause you don’t accept me

I’m a misfit always feeling empty

Now you wish that you never met me

I won’t never be normal I don’t feel like you

I don’t fit in but you know I stay true

You think that I hate you but I hate me

I pull my blunt out [??} and smoking HD

You won’t save my soul

I’ll parish with the sinners

Deep down below right by the river

Leave me to bleed right after dinner

Taking shots and shots like for my liver

I hurt myself again

I don’t deserve no friends

My heart it breaks and bends

Disaster boy till end

I hurt myself again

I don’t deserve no friends

My heart it breaks and bends

Disaster boy till end