Boat Paddle - iwrestledabearonce

I felt the ocean breaking over my head

I’m spinning

A constant pressure I can’t fight

I might not make it through the night

the night

the night

the night

I was raised in a state;

so much at stake, a slab of meat deteriorating

Muscles are weak, no bone in my back, ligaments slack

Sensations, my insides cave as they rot

Infested in waves, take hold of my marrow and wash it away

No bone in my back, ligaments slack, sensations, my insides cave as they rot

I’m treading water, dreading

the end won’t numb my feeling

I’m calling out to you, I’m begging you for help

Because I’ve been given all the answers and I can’t

even help myself

Yes, I’ve been given all the answers and I can’t

even help myself

I held a glass out in my hands

I made a fist, a consequence

My fingertips are filled with shards

My open palm is filled with blood

A single drop will conjure up unspeakable creatures preserved in the salt

Worse than darkest pools in my mind

They float, suspended

There is no time, no time

I’m treading water, dreading

the end won’t numb my feeling

I’m calling out to you, I’m begging you for help

Because I’ve been given all the answers but I can’t

even help myself

Yes, I’ve been given all the answers and I can’t

even help myself

I curse the god who brought a vision as I cry for help

an island passing and I’m reaching out for help

because I’ve been given all the answers but I can’t

even help myself

Yes, I’ve been given all the answers and I can’t

even help myself