Achilles - Ivy Sole

My knees kissed the carpet every night before bed

Thanked a ghost for what he gave me, promptly begged him for rest

Like now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul don’t leap

Up out my chest or heart or head, I pray that I end up dead

Cousin pried open my legs, left puddles and pain

So I prayed for a sign but all that came was some shame

And a secret that I kept behind my eyes wide shut

Between these taut lipped teeth in these too tight lungs

Taught myself to breathe heavy, bite bullets in time

Bought a cage to keep the nightmares and terrors at bay

Crafted casket for the crouching crowded hurt in my mind

Colored memories when culprits had me dreaming in gray

Now I gaze at the sun and think of who I used to pray to

The services attended endeavoring to be saved

This religion that I clung to got me looking to the page

Is it empty or infinity that’s keeping me awake?

Hook:

Like one two three sheep

Four five close yo eyes

Six, shit, I can’t sleep

So I’m lifting up my window just to talk to the skies

Like seven stars won’t you hear my pleas

It’s apparent that the kid’s in need

I got 89 problems and 10 more coming

Why won’t anybody listen to me

(See I’ve been) Looking for god in everywhere but my head

(and I’ve been) Looking for peace in every place but my heart

(And I searched) High and low, near and far

But the time and the distance are what made the wounds depart

I’ve been fighting like Attila the Hun

Think my Achilles is love

Ain’t no safety when all that’s left is the smoke of the gun

Blood leaking teaches you to fear being exposed

And every person represents your next potential blow

So I couldn’t let him touch me, couldn’t let her close

Couldn’t say I love you when they needed it most

I’m sorry for the lessons I learned at your expense

And I know it hurts that you can’t see my growth in present tense

It’s funny ‘cause you said it would happen

You saw the future I could barely imagine

Now I dream of us when insomnia’s at bay

But rest assured we’re better off this way

Hook:

Like one two three sheep

Four five close yo eyes

Six, shit, I can’t sleep

So I’m lifting up my window just to talk to the skies

Like seven stars won’t you hear my pleas

It’s apparent that the kid’s in need

I got 89 problems and 10 more coming

Why won’t anybody listen to me