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I watch it take its toll in every possible behavior

Sitting in the corner hoping some day he would save her

But he didn’t

it grew more difficult, in fact

he’s the only reason why this whole commitment’s not intact

Torn in two

forced to decide where to stand

But it grows to be intense when support can’t meet demand

So I listen

and take both sides into account

I’m attached to every two, preventing either one from drowning

Listen up

there’s no particular response

that could heal these wounds and stagnate more of this loss

Let it out

Let it fly, but don’t let it die

Nearly three decades leaves me puzzled asking why

Why try to immediately intervene and change this

Multiply the difference and you learn to lose your patience

Say this might have a moment of redemption

Holding me together is my mother’s sole protection

Broken spirits

married to an ever-changing person

Complicated everything and feeling undetermined

Our father

teaching me to be the man I see

But I need to question lessons and create my own identity

Stolen thoughts

my childhood was based on their existence

But if they can’t survive together

where’s my hope to live this

Life to its fullest and succeed in a relationship

Based on where they land I’ll occupy where the patience sits

Making this a therapy session with what I write

Bury me beneath the melted wax of the candle light

Fighting for the happy ending promised to each other

It drove itself into a barricade of being stubborn

Lovers

sworn to protect each other physically

Suffering from detached feelings

corrupted symmetry

It came across as being easy for abandonment

Alcohol induced phone calls is a mismanagement

Of a father-son bond losing interaction

Now I sit in front of her and watch it kill the passion

That she saved to live for the life of this one man

Praying for the day that she would get to see her husband

South American culture doesn’t seem to point the finger

South American culture is convincing him to leave her

North American culture is influencing her judgment

Move on

it’s not worth all this destruction

A husband in fairytale on the fly enthusiast

Damaging this world of her’s is just ludicrous

6 months gone with the same explanation

Still unimpressed with always being on vacation

Unemployed

just another ploy to leave the country

Hasn’t seen the love of her life since he was nothing

With a little money he exasperated traveling

making me a witness to the bickering and battling

It seems like a soap opera adolescence program

Live now, leave later, welcome to my stone hands

They don’t execute that signal of affection

The eyes are a window to a spiritual infection

Now I’m responsible to act as her fallback

Her crutch, her brains, her rock

whatever you want to call that

This is the road that must now be followed

A time to unload and start to feel what is hollow

I remember when he said that we were just the same

That’s my inspiration to change

I’ll recreate the name

Remember when he said that we were just the same

That’s my inspiration to change

I’ll recreate the name

Love won’t bother to salvage a father

I didn’t even want to fucking write this song

Life stays stubborn

it won’t help a mother

I didn’t even want to fucking sing this song

Time stays distant

along with commitment

I didn’t even want to fucking make this song

Alone and apart, this dismantled the heart

I didn’t even want to fucking know this song

Love won’t bother, life won’t stays stubborn

I didn’t even want to fucking write this song

Time stays distant, alone and apart

I didn’t even want to fucking sing this song

To salvage a father, you won’t help a mother

I didn’t even fucking want to make this song

Along with commitment, this dismantled heart

I didn’t even want to fucking know this song

Love won’t bother, life stays stubborn

I didn’t even want to fucking write this song

Time stays distant, alone and apart

I didn’t even want to fucking sing this song

To salvage a father, it won’t help a mother

I didn’t even fucking want to make this song

Along with commitment, this dismantled heart

I didn’t even want to fucking know this song