Neo-Pseudo Existence - In-Quest

A new fake existence

as universe aligned

I’ve seen a red handed halo stirred within

untamed and bitter

a soul went awoken

a feline once frail and broken

the more I cling and crawl, distance rises

a predators’s thrall

as water streaming upwards

has me drowned, the myth of sisyphus turns real

terminal sickness, purge my exitence

I found the track to my other self

lost, succumb to my fate irreversibly blocked

I failed you in vain I flew you

the prey hunt, the deer shot

inseminated melancholy, contaminated without empathy

terminal sickness, purge my existence of this piteous throwness

I choke a neo-pseudo existence

where despise and desire can’t be told apart, where pain boils

in the soil of the soul

and a fading will reigns the heart

my perception without cure

for you a truth too obscure

isolated, battered and broken, I bity my way through these restraints

senses numb, behind a grinfrozen

I dispossess of once treasured lost faith

magic with morals

you’re reluctant, yourself to embrace or endure

meaningless thoughts derail

in moments of atonement amorality prevails

5 minutes, a wish never granted, angelic nectar implanted

imagine the marvel of utopian perfectin

unmasked a fraud

a mockup in sudden insight

catharsis undone

you chose a neo-pseudo existence

shaded whit shallow stripped emotions, where your life is nothing but a hollow

shell

and your words are void of devotion

the way things once believed end in sorrow grieved

and what once surprised is demystified

catharsis undone