what gives - Iamjakehill

I don’t wanna die, I don’t really wanna live

I don’t wanna try, nothing works, what gives?

I been movin' fast, see the end of my road

Wait, I take it back, cut the end of my rope

I don’t really sleep, so I’m feelin' like shit

Seven days a week, that’s the life I live

But it’s all good, I come alive in the night

Gunning toward the edge, tell me jump, I just might

I know I got a lot to say

I really miss the way things used to be

Can everything go away?

I really hate the way I hate me

I feel like I’m wastin' my breath

I been headin' for the depths with the secret I’ve kept

Got a bag in the back and it’s full of dead dreams

Put a tack on the map, Hell is all that I see now

I put on a mask just to hide my face

Don’t want anyone to see me in this empty state

My life has went down, my stress has gone up

My hope is burned out, I need some good luck

I don’t wanna die, I don’t really wanna live

I don’t wanna try, nothing works, what gives?

I been movin' fast, see the end of my road

Wait, I take it back, cut the end of my rope

I don’t really sleep, so I’m feelin' like shit

Seven days a week, that’s the life I live

But it’s all good, I come alive in the night

Gunning toward the edge, tell me jump, I just might

And I don’t mean to let you down

I really miss the way I used to be

I wish it could be over now, I really hate the way life made me

Never found the light, I’m at the end of the tunnel

I’ve been goin' way too long, the waves are pullin' me under

I probably sound a little weak, but that’s okay 'cause I am

I’m not afraid to cry 'cause that’s apart of being a man, damn

I dug myself a grave and laid down in the bottom of it

Seems like it’s only me, myself and I, but I’m just fine

Don’t hold your head too low

You’re better than the dirt you walk on

That’s what I tell myself so I’ll keep hanging on this time

You don’t wanna see me like this

I’m a mess and I can’t hide it

Try to lie, but I can’t fight it

Can’t fight this

I want you to know that I really do care

Even if it seems like I’m never really there

Yeah, I got some things, gotta work on myself

It’s hard to be me when I’m goin' through hell

People try to tell me everything is okay

But they don’t know the story, they don’t me anyway

I just keep it movin' even though I’m weighed down

I just keep on losin', see you on the way down

I don’t wanna die, I don’t really wanna live

I don’t wanna try, nothing works, what gives?

I been movin' fast, see the end of my road

Wait, I take it back, cut the end of my rope

I don’t wanna sleep, so I’m feelin' like shit

Seven days a week, that’s the life I live

But it’s all good, I come alive in the night

Gunning toward the edge, tell me jump, I just might