A Father's End -

In the darkness, there’s a glow

And I suppose that’s the idea

So to the ground, stealth and swiftly I proposed

-On the chance no one could hear me

Warry footsteps in the gray

But I’m not frightened

I would fear me!

And all this time, I’d never sank so low

That’s why I feel so far away

I’d one shot and all to lose

(My eyes were shut, my ears were set)

-No such thing as wasting time

(Not a patient man, so a penitent man)

My hands were coarse

And my heart beat with a sound like a stampede of horses

I’d no idea what was waiting there for me

That’s why I feel so far away

I’d one shot and all to lose

(My eyes were shut, my ears were set)

-No such thing as wasting time

(Not a patient man, so a penitent man)

Patience—my only move

(My eyes were shut, my ears were set)

And that slipped when I fell away

(Not a patient man, so a penitent man)

My god, I’m not okay

Looking out in confusion, I had made a mistake!

I had jumped to conclusion

And there was no escape

-Not my best

I had sacrificed everything

I would not leave this place empty-handed again!

There was no retreat

I’d not be defeated by virtue

Believe, I’d push it

What a heathen to make an impression on me!

Introducing: the star of the show!

Dirty fingers and laughing

Your eyes could not lie

I held my back to a fiery stove

I was in ire—I was engulfed

All I desired?

A slit of the throat

I was outnumbered—all of me burned

I would rip off this crown if I could

But it branded itself to my skull

-Felt cemented, my spirit was choked

The flames rushed in

I smiled—I smiled for you

I’m impressed that I could not see it through this maze

Different stage, but the mask was the same

I felt numb

That fel-crown slipped off

My soul went quiet for the first and only time

What have you done for me?

This trust’s been lost

I am tired, and I am done

I don’t care anymore

-Dreams of fire seared my cheeks

But I couldn’t feel anymore…

Has my heart turned into dust?

-No more tears anymore

Here’s to a father’s end!