[FiEN] - Haych

«I don’t know if I would

Necessarily say it’s a portrait of me

But I also don’t know if like, y’know

If I could say it’s really not a portrait of me

Coz I feel like, in some way

Y’know all drawings are

Sort of a portrait of like

My mind and like what i’m thinking and

My ideas which I feel like is more

Accurate portrayal of a person than

What they look like

So who knows?

Y’know i’m sure I could classify it as that

If I wanted to

But it doesn’t really look like me

Right now it looks like, i mean it looks like a shape»

This isn’t what I wanted

This isn’t who I am

Can I be the boy in the corner

Not the bitch who relapsed?

No way, are my bones tight?

Wanna be the other one within no time

That’s fine (No it’s not)

Have blurry nights

In-, fight, -side, like

Burn 'em when they get too bright

Like i’m climbing a mountain with no height

(No height, no height, no height, no height)

Tell them when i’m done

But i’m not done 'till I look different

Changing, replacing

My wardrobe hates me

That’s what I wanna be but i can’t face it

Not what you wanted

Not what you need

Can’t be what you wanted

'Ever just a freak

(Fuck you, fuck this

Everything punk shit)

Crippling real fast

Torn brain, top that

Don’t you dare relax

Mei, you just climaxed

Kill us everyday

When we don’t and we can’t ever fit in

When I wanna be something else

Lead someone’s short life

And never look the other way

Ooooooooo

Do you feel it now?

That sense of doubt

Is it real?

is it fake?

Double-take

Could I make this mistake?

And never look the other way

Not what you wanted

Not what you need

Jesus fucking christ

Holy shit, i’m going wild

Half-a-thousand monthly listeners

From me, myself and I

That’s wild

(Thank you, no really thank you)

I was lost, now i’m found

Making bangers like this

Joan, I hope I make you proud

I hope I make it big

Buy my grandad anything

He’s the reason I do it

And all my lifetime friends and Millie

Always do it for my family

(Fuck yeah)

That’s what I need to stay alive

Do this for everyone who’s by my side

Soon i’ll have to come down from this high

But I hope I leave a legecy that you can’t fuck with when I die

Not what you wanted

Not what you need

Can’t be what you wanted

'Ever just a freak

(Fuck you, fuck this

Everything punk shit)

Crippling real fast

Torn brain, top that

Don’t you dare relax

Mei, you just climaxed

Kill us everyday

When we don’t and we can’t ever fit in

When I wanna be something else

Lead someone’s short life

And never look the other way

Ooooooooo

Do you feel it now?

That sense of doubt

Is it real?

is it fake?

Double-take

Could I make this mistake?

And never look the other way

Kill us everyday

When we don’t and we can’t ever fit in

When I wanna be something else

Lead someone’s short life

Or never look the other way

Ooooooooo

Do you feel it now?

That sense of doubt

Is it real?

is it fake?

Double-take

Could I make this mistake?

And never look the other way

(Never look the other way)

(Yeah)

(Never look the other way)

«But it doesn’t really look like me

Right now it looks like, i mean it looks like a shape

But it is still weird

Because even though

I wouldn’t necessarily consider this like

A portrait of me

It does still feel like

Kinda personalble

Or personal

Whichever one of those is correct

Maybe if they’re both correct, that’s great

But it does feel personal and like

I’m almost exposig myself in some ways

And maybe I am

And maybe it just feels weird because

I don’t even fully know what i’m exposing completely

Or maybe it’s because I have no real good reason

For anything I drew in here

Or really anything I do