Intoxicated - Gremlin

There is so much on my mind

I’m talking all the time

Sorry if I forward you if you call my line

I’m just lost inside my thoughts with a cigar and wine

I can tell my chakras now are not aligned

Wish someone could tell me what is wrong with the heart of mine

It’s overshadowed by the darkness when it starts to shine

I really need to lie in bed to calm my mind

But I been drinking so my home right now is hard to find

I’m just an artist who is partly blind

Only sees the bad and never good when he starts to rhyme

I wished you cared that I never had a solid heart

But when I fall apart (Fall apart)

You call it art (Call it art)

Pinpointing suppressed memories is awfully hard

So I numb this shit with shots hitting all the marks

I’m just trying find myself in this

But the more I look for help the more I feel helplessness

I’m drinking another one

Even though I really wished I could slow down

I’m drinking another one

Always say I’m gonna stop but I don’t know how

I’m drinking another one

Sorry momma I really wished I could slow down

But I’m drinking another one

Always say I’m gonna stop but I don’t know how

(I don’t know how)

The hell with this

Maybe I should see the therapist

So they can tell me what’s wrong like there it is

Acting like she can solve it with some narratives

While she is going home getting divorced like her parents did

It’s always issues we don’t deal with 'cause we scared of it

I look in my reflection and I don’t know whose eyes I’m staring in

It’s terrible, man I really know I should take care of it

'Cause in order for me to move forward it’s imperative

I’m scared to find what’s underneath

'Cause whenever I get terrified it’s tough to breathe

These feelings are a parasite

And I have nowhere to hide

So I just wear the hide of fucking sheep

See I’m hoping

That y’all can take it

I don’t think I’m broken

I think my heart is misshapen

That’s why my relationships can get overly complicated

And why I always get more toxic when intoxicated

Far from perfect

But I swear to God I’m worth it

'Cause I’m giving you all that I got and not what’s just on the surface

So it really doesn’t matter matter to me if this song gets purchased

I just want you to know that I write every song with purpose

And the purpose of this one for you to see inside

And show you what’s been eating me alive

What am I to do when liquors causing me to be deprived

At the same time only thing that’s helping me survive

I’m drinking another one

Even though I really wished I could slow down

I’m drinking another one

Always say I’m gonna stop but I don’t know how

I’m drinking another one

Sorry momma I really wished I could slow down

But I’m drinking another one

Always say I’m gonna stop but I don’t know how

(I don’t know how)