Turnpike -

There has to be a reason i stopped feeling anything

Embarrassing myself but I’m still counting ceiling

Tiles to pass the days, nothing can stay

I drank the whole bottle, i forgot your birthday

And that’s alright

I watched you undress, but holding hands is meaningless

I waited all winter but you moved in together

I can’t wait patiently

I’ve drawn our names in concrete

You promise me one day

I’ll cross my fingers tightly

You never know how fucked up you are until you’re all alone

Looking at yourself in the bathroom mirror

Cup my hands around the light, a house made of wax

Count back from 10 and try to relax

But i’ll be alright

So close your eyes and take a deep breath

It’s a jump from a ledge not a push off a cliff

We hit traffic on the turnpike

And we took turns driving all night

You drove head first into my bed

But i didn’t crash until you left

Clenching my fists and grinding my jawbone

When i’m with you i’m learning to be alone