Atelophobia - Empty Handed

I am tired of myself questioning everything

I never tried to escape even though I had a thousand plans about it:

to release myself, to disconnect from everything around me

I wrote it on the walls, I had my face down, but I was wide-awake while you

kept slitting my throat

My mind plays tricks on me and time never healed a single let- down

Why do I feel enamoured of people that I should rather forget?

Now I can’t tell

you what is real ‘cause everything’s just a fragment of your expectations

No more

No more expectations

‘You're not good enough' is what they keep telling me

And to think, I had wishes

I thought I could fulfil your dreams

I thought I could be someone to you

The truth is, I never loved you but I’m still in love with the things I thought

we might have been

Keep your eyes shut and take a look at me

Our thoughts will sing to the sound of letting go

I hope you’re lonely like me.

Set me free