where'd you go - Ekoh

Where’d you go?

I miss you so

And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone

Ay-yo, some days, they just don’t hit

Some days I wanna quit

Give up all this music shit and dip

I used to think that this would make me happy if I made it

But lately I just been so uninspired and keep complaining

'Bout everything and home, I’m always on the phone

Well, people listen now but I’ve never felt more alone

And I don’t know if that’s a product of the job

Or more the fact I call it a job now, and I refuse to stop

When I’m feeling run down I try to see my friends

If you ignore enough of 'em you’ll stop receiving texts

And when I am around 'em I’m too stuck inside my head

So then I don’t enjoy the moment and I just feel so

I want you to know I’m a little fucked up

I just can’t shake it, more close to breaking

Than I’ve ever been at any point in my whole life

Staying up and I’m talking to myself like

Where’d you go?

I miss you so

And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone

Where’d you go?

I miss you so

And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone

Please come back home

Yeah, my girl loves me, don’t know if she still in love with me

I ain’t had a drug but I feel like I’m in recovery

Overthink the future then everything starts to fuck with me

Feel like I get used for this content until they done with me

But I should be happy, look at these numbers doubling

All the while the thoughts have just gradually gotten troubling

Got an empty tank, it’s just fear and depression running me

While I build this up, my life is crumbling down

They say that everything in life is beautiful

I try to keep that in the forefront of my mind, but

Yesterday I fantasized my funeral

And that’s the happiest I’ve been in some time, so

I don’t know what’s going on

But I know it used to help but now we put it in these songs

I always feared that I would end up here just like my momma

She would isolate and get depressed and try to end it all, uh

Yeah, it’s scary 'cause I finally understand

That all the things you thought would fix the problems really can’t

Like why the fuck I feel this way if nothing’s really bad?

'Cause

Happiness is not the absence of being sad, so

I guess I’m kinda fucked up, and I just can’t take it

More close to breaking than I’ve ever been at any point in my whole life

Looking back at the good times we felt, like

Where’d you go?

I miss you so

And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone

Where’d you go?

I miss you so

And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone

Please come back home