Five Years Down - Driveways

You ripped me out of the ground

You ripped me out of it

Put me down again

I was better dead

I was suffocating on the words I never said

I feel a shovel break inside

I see the morning light and wonder why

You ripped me out of the ground

When I awoke

Rigor mortis cold

I look at my surroundings, I don’t see another soul

The sky is tourmaline and amethyst and gray

A beautiful decay

Put my grave back down

I know that you hate the way that sounds

I’m just sick of nightmares and minor chords

And chills down your spinal chord

Five years of trying for an end

You ripped me out of the ground

You ripped me out of it

I see the cemetery gates

Surrounded by the desolate that I could never save

What made you rip me out of the ground

I see the street

Silhouettes appear

I feel a combination of hysteria and fear

I feel a pulse in my heart like a tremor

I stop to remember it all

Put my grave back down

I know that you hate the way that sounds

I’m just sick of nightmares and minor chords

And chills down your spinal chord

Five years of trying for an end

You ripped me out of the ground

One of the silhouettes lingers and gestures for me to approach

My rigid movements seem like histrionics but still I feel tired and cold

It shows me a stone mausoleum where candles are glowing inside

Inscribed on the walls are the words that describe every failure I’ve known in

my life

But I don’t see an epitaph

I don’t see a name on display

I turn around to question that

But the silhouette had faded away

The past is just a monument

And I used to think it would kill me

I put a grave on top of it

But every October I still see

Nothing short of nightmares

The sky seems closer now

I still see those terrors in the night

And I’m haunted by hindsight and ghosts I couldn’t drown

I still feel those skeletons creeping inside of my head

In every epilogue I’ve read, seems like they never find the end

I wish I could hold it together

October forever

I’m part of it now

We’re five years down

We’re five years down

We’re five years down

We’re five years down

Nothing short of nightmares

The sky seems closer now

I still see those terrors in the night

And I’m haunted by hindsight and ghosts I couldn’t drown

I still feel those skeletons creeping inside of my head

In every epilogue I’ve read, seems like they never find the end

I wish I could hold it together

October forever

I’m part of it now

We’re five years down