It Was Me - Deradoorian

What do you want to know about meditation?

What do you want to know about the brain?

I only went looking for these things

When I knew I was going insane

I thought my mind would grow calmer

Like a pond in the morning rise

But as the years went longer

The wisdom was but a disguise

It was me

A masked version of love

A heart behind a stone

Attempts at intertwining

Were at best a distant tone

Long before I could tell

A footless one I became

Traversing the world far and wide

The ground I could not name

It was me

A touch of the toe on the earth below

Would sting like the hottest of coals

What good was it to feel a body

When I could rest inside my soul

What good is a soul without a body?

What good is god without your mind?

You can’t believe in nothing

If you can’t feel what’s inside

It was me

Sensation o sensation

A mystical conversation

What told me I knew the answer?

When I was so far from creation?

Tethered to the contemplation

Of a thought galaxies away

There was nothing out there

There was nothing in here

And nothing is here to stay

That was me

All I know is a feeling

It makes me feel good or bad

I don’t know what those words mean

And I don’t know what I am

But no longer I look for the answer

From whence I did before

Like a gust of wind on a hot summer’s day

I become the dust once more