Beta Blocker - Cyanotic

I haven’t slept in so long.

It feels like weeks.

My mind’s in overdrive now.

My muscles atrophied.

In fear of all the angles.

All the reasons I can’t breathe.

Never sure if I can come away remitting this dependency.

In constant fear and doubt of death and all unsure.

I need something to calm my nerves now.

Nothing that the drugs can’t cure.

A total plague of worry.

In need of logic’s reason.

Do I want these sedatives to settle all my doubt?

Not sure of side effects or repercussions anymore.

Not sure if I want to feel the psychotropics anymore.